Sunday, May 24, 2009
having a hard time not obsessing about the sexy arms thing in salsa. figured out DID is a Scorpio, and I had thought he was a Sagittarius this whole time. explains why I am a little afraid of him and I think of him kind of like my dad in a Greek tragedy sort of way. today we did a Rumba thing where I am supposed to put my hand on his stomach. I don't know why I find this extremely intimate. dancer people don't think about it at all. then I wanted to work on the end of our showcase routine - something fancy. he suggested a dip. the first one is not so much of a dip, but it is called a dip. it's basically me standing on one leg like a flamingo, and with my arm around his waist. I noticed I was putting my forearm on his back, but I wasn't touching it with my hand. I guess I am afraid it's like a wildfire. if I were to allow myself to commit to the sexy arms, we would have sex. I realize this is unreasonable, but I am so black and white, that I just can't find any grey area. it's all or nothing. sexy arms, sex. no sexy arms, no sex. of course, I do not want us to have sex, nor do I think he is suggesting that, either. I am so glad Shawn Johnson won DWTS. maybe she can give me some advice.