After I did IMCA, Kathleen W said I would probably get some PID. Why would I get pelvic inflammatory disease? No, post Ironman depression. I did. I had an existential crisis.
I think I am going through a little, now. But nothing like that bout. I don't think completing an IM means anything in terms of my contribution to humanity. Hopefully, my academic research will at least not harm humanity. Possibly, someday, make a nano-contribution to humanity.
I am glad I have a real baby on the way now that my other baby can be abandoned. I was gung-ho to clean out the house and all this stuff, but I don't really feel like doing anything.
I am sure this is normal, and don't worry about me, I am just having a little self-awareness.